DAY TO DAY LIFE WITHOUT HIM

I am not even sure how to start this since everyday of my life since he has been gone has been hell on earth from the time i wake up in the morning  i begin wishing he was waking up beside me to fixing breakfast and wishing i was making it for both of us.  he is on my mind at all times wishing and wanting him here with me enjoying the new things happening in my life with moving into a new home and preparing for our wedding.  and by the time lunch is here again i am wishing he was here to enjoy it with me  and lets face it  eating alone every day is not much fun to begin with  and when you fall in love with the man of your dreams and are preparing to marry him  you kind of expect him to be beside you when you are going though all the new things and even the normal routine day to day things.   but in my case  i can only wish he was here with me  or me there with him, either way would be ok with me  if we could only be together.  by dinner time i have already spent at least an hour crying (at some point throughout the day) just because i am missing him so much and then bed time rolls around and he is not here with me to lay beside me and do the normal talking about the day we just had and what is in store for tomorrow. and again the crying starts   just to have him to give me a hug and a kiss good night and to hear i love you  would mean so much  but that cant happen with him being in prison  so for everyone out there that is reading this  dont ever take for granted the person in your life that is right there beside you day to day. someday they just may be taken from you for something very stupid.